In Demi Lovato’s YouTube documentary, Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil, she shares two stories from her past about separate sexual assaults.
In the first, she shares that on the night of her 2018 overdose, she “was taken advantage of” by her drug dealer.
Demi Lovato said: “When they found me, I was naked, blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me.”
“When I woke up in the hospital, they asked if we had had consensual sex. There was one flash that I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said yes. It wasn’t until a month after the overdose that I realized, ‘You weren’t in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.'”
She then shared her story of being raped as a teen.
She said she did not originally come forward with the 2018 rape because of the rape when she was 15.
Lovato says that she “lost [her] virginity in a rape”. She did not state who raped her, but she expanded on the situation: they were hooking up then and she did not want to have sex yet.
“I was part of that Disney crowd that publicly said they were waiting until marriage. I didn’t have the romantic first time,” Lovato explained. “That was not it for me—that sucked. Then I had to see this person all the time so I stopped eating and coped in other ways.”
“I really beat myself up for years, which is also why I had a really hard time coming to terms with the fact that it was a rape when it happened. We were hooking up but I said, ‘Hey, this is not going any further. I’m a virgin and I don’t want to lose it this way.’ And that didn’t matter to them, they did it anyways. And I internalized it, and I told myself it was my fault because I still went in the room with him. I still hooked up with him.”
Lovato said she did tell adults about that rape but there was never a reckoning for the person who committed the assault.
“They never got taken out of the movie they were in. But I’ve always kept it quiet because I’ve always had something to say and it’s like, I don’t know, I’m tired of opening my mouth. So there’s the tea,” she said.
After her assaults, she tried to “take control” by staying in touch with the people who raped her; she “tried to make it right by being in control. All it did was make me feel worse”.
“I’m coming forward about what happened to me because everyone that happens to should absolutely speak their voice if they can and feel comfortable doing so,” she added. “Women are typically more repressed than men, especially at 15 years old, and especially as a little child star role model who’s supposed to be perfect, who had a promise ring! So what—I’m supposed to come out to the public after saying I have a promise ring? Six months later, I’m supposed to say, well I had sex—even though it was rape! Some people aren’t going to see it that way.”