19 Parents Who Regret Having Kids Reveal Why

This one’s a tough story to read through on any morning. As we comb through these anonymous stories from a thread on Reddit, remember that the topic may be taboo but the feelings are real. And it has to be so, so hard.

u/SniperGlizzy asked the Reddit world:

“What is it like to have children you don’t want?”

And, kind of sadly, there were plenty of answers to choose from. Here are some of the top-rated ones. We’ll start off lighter.

1. Love them… but…

“I love my kids, and I’m told I’m a pretty good dad, and sometimes I enjoy it, but most of the time it’s just draining. … I understand that there are people out there who enjoy spending time with kids, just like there are people who enjoy talking to strangers — and suffice it to say I’m just not one of them.”— Anon

2. Custody

“I have custody of my brother’s kids. I didn’t want them. I already have one of my own. My brother’s kids are not as well behaved as my children. It is very frustrating. I love them. I will protect them and take care of them. I find myself very upset by the fact that I just can’t seem to love them as much as my children. It’s depressing. I hate myself because I feel this way. … I try so hard to not let my nieces and nephews see that I struggle with this. But kids are smart, and I know they pick up on it.”—u/throwthisaway712

3. Mother was awful

“I have a son who I didn’t want. His mother treated me terribly when we were together, and we only found out she was pregnant after we separated. Being able to finally escape an abusive relationship, only to be pulled back in with pregnancy was devastating. That being said, my son and I have an incredible bond, and whilst my relationship with his mum never recovered, I am glad she made the decision to keep him (against my wishes).”—u/jonsynthetica

4. Single mom

“I don’t like being a mom. I’m a single mom and they are with me always… I never get a break. One adult, three kids… I’m tired. I am counting the days until they are all moved out and gone. I constantly imagine how great my life would be without them. And then I feel like a horrible person because who thinks like that. I’m such a good mom to them too, no one would ever guess I think like that. I’m a fake.”

5. No more

“I love my kids. I would die for them. But after having them, I realized I don’t want to have any kids. I can’t seem to enjoy them. I’m too serious with them. I think it’s because I have to make sure they grow up good people. I’m responsible for them. I wish I could enjoy them but I have a hard time getting out of my seriousness.”—u/lady_A_16

6. Don’t feel like a parent

“I don’t feel like a mom, I feel like a caregiver. I get little joy in taking care of my daughter and I am constantly worn down. I’m exhausted. This pandemic has destroyed what little sanity I had left, as I can’t even get a small break because there is no school.”—u/floralsquid

7. Could be more

“It set the tone for the rest of my life, one of those ‘hindsight is 20/20’ things. I honestly believe that if I’d never had a kid, particularly when I was as young and alone as I was in a very socially backward area, I’d have made a lot more of myself. … Both of our lives could have been a lot better had I either waited to have her or let another couple adopt her, like I wanted, but I was forced out of the choice.”

8. Thought I did

“I have three. I really thought I wanted kids because that’s what I thought I was supposed to do: be a wife and have kids. I love them, and I want the best for them. But I don’t have the same connection to them that other moms seem to have. I don’t miss them when I have to go on a long trip. I just feel relief. Having them home because of the pandemic has been really hard for me. I have a lot of guilt about it. … Even though I’m surrounded by family, it feels pretty damn lonely. I don’t feel like I belong in my own life.”—u/ChristiOnionstrings

9. They never leave

“It’s like having some guests at your house that never, never get around to leaving for years, but you must take care of them to avoid getting into trouble and judged by others.”—u/deepstatetraitor

10. It’s so hard.

“I’ve honestly thought about this question before. My son (14 months) was planned, and he is incredible, absolutely a light in our lives. On the other hand, I was super ill the entire pregnancy, depressed and struggling up until a few months ago. Now, this was made worse by two moves (military) and COVID, of course, but I never, ever want to do this again.”

11. Gave up my fun years

“My husband and I have been raising my niece for three and a half years. … My niece is almost 16 now. I’m 29 and I feel like I gave up my fun and carefree years to raise my sister’s kids. I’ve always dreamed of having my own children, and now that I’m struggling to conceive, I can’t help but feel resentful that I’m raising one of my junkie sister’s six healthy children. Overall, my niece is a good kid. I love her and I want her to do well in life, but she doesn’t feel like she’s our kid, and she doesn’t think of us when she thinks about who her parents are.”—u/V4ult_g1rl

12. Forced pregnancy

“My ex-husband was emotionally abusive and, if I’m being completely honest with myself, forced me into getting pregnant three months after I went into labor and lost our daughter at 20 weeks. I wasn’t ready and I hadn’t really had a chance to grieve. Our son was 13 weeks early, spent two months in the NICU, and cost over $1 million in his first year. Now my son is almost 7, his ‘father’ hasn’t been in the picture for years, and until recently, I was doing it all on my own.”—u/MassiveConflict2465

13. Trapped

“My ex-girlfriend baby-trapped me. She stopped taking her birth control and didn’t tell me. Then cheated on me while pregnant. At that point, I wanted nothing to do with her and was not prepared to be a father. I was young and dumb and still learning who I was and what I wanted to do with my life. She gave me the option to walk away and never see the kid again. I thought about it but couldn’t bring myself to; knowing my kid was out there was going to weigh heavily on my conscience.”–Anon

14. Single mom, stuck

“Being a single mum with a kid stuck with me; it just feels like an obligation to me. I do love my kid, for sure. But I don’t really feel the ‘bond’ or the wishy-washy mum-son connection that other parents describe. Sometimes I envy those parents. Maybe because the pregnancy was unplanned, or maybe because of how terrible it was coming home to an empty apartment with all of my partner’s things gone, then suddenly having to take care of this little man who had his face.”

15. Didn’t plan it.

“My girlfriend had a 2-year-old when I met her. He’s 5 now. I didn’t plan to have kids, but I love her. I’m pretty much used to it. I teach him stuff and he’s attached to my hip when he’s here, but ideally I’d have preferred not to have a kid around. Never really said that out loud — this is liberating.”—u/Dewy_Wanna_Go_There

16. Not planned again.

“My son was born a little over a year ago. He wasn’t planned. My wife and I welcomed him into our lives with open arms. We loved and cared for him (and still do), and we are trying our best to provide him with a great life. But for me, doing everything I can to provide him with a great life is, in essence, sucking my soul out of me.”—u/frizzhf

17. Wouldn’t do it again.

“I love my son — I would die for him; I’d kill for him if I had to. Yet if I could go back in time and not have children, I would. I was not prepared for a child, even though we planned this pregnancy. I was not prepared for how much I’d lose myself and my whole identity. I was not prepared for the sleep deprivation, the constant screaming, the colic. I think that overall, I had a very bad experience. I was very, very sick after having a baby. I will NEVER let my son know this; I will NEVER let my son feel that he is unloved or unwanted. It was not his choice to be born.”—u/dontwantanaccount

18. We should be more honest about this.

“I think this is a conversation that more women especially should have. You are close to being burned at the stake if you confess that, actually, if you could turn back the clock, you wouldn’t have children. I feel that these conversations may stop perpetuating this idea that if you’re a woman, you will automatically adore your children, and let you know that you have more options than just having children. Women do also go through things such as postpartum depression, and maybe others talking about it won’t make them feel so guilty and alienated.” — Anon

19. She had one